Cassandra and I on the observatory wall
Sharing the same calling
And feeling the evening breeze,
Stalling without time,
We pretend to be alone.
The horn sounds, but
This determined creation
Was nothing of the kind;
Turning from the sign.
Should I cry out ‘these are the end times’
When it’s just our calendar’s lost the will to count?
My moments will be as banal
As anyone’s, I’m sure;
Recriminations and bitter regrets,
Dead promises and human debts.
I loved you –
But then so did they all,
And all of them lost,
Saw themselves ashen,
Remembered or not,
‘All one does is all one can.’
This relieves not at all.
The stars begin to fall.
Beaten by tyrant nerves, I waver,
Hustle a glance at her countenance,
No luck; she doesn’t look at all.
Too late for that –
Incalculable prayers connect and form
At the hole in the stratosphere;
They dissipate like so much air,
Sprinkling into dust and fear.
I can almost feel you
Your body, your hair, your breath on my neck,
My hand curled to shield your face
And your glorious hands tight on me
To steady your stance;
One moment of grand romance.
My arms offer reassurance
Against the unendurable.
Lost in this sensation, an invocation of everything
Although untrue, keeps me breaking apart.
Knowing this listless infinity we’re about to start,
I take the final step
Into the event horizon.